(or Next Stop: Purple Lake at Love Hall)
I started writing this post several weeks ago and then got distracted by life. So much so that I had forgotten all about it. So when I starting writing again and went to save my first draft, not surprisingly using the exact same document name as before, I was startled to get the pop-up warning “The file already exists.” Really? It does? Clearly this is something that my psyche needs to set down.
There’s really no other way to describe it. The past few months have been a spectacularly catastrophic train wreck. I wish I could take credit for this adept analogy, but I didn’t come up with it. Rather it was given to me by one of the therapists whom I consulted with at the beginning of the year. Despite the multitude of red flags that went up before, during and after our meeting, she did leave me with this one nugget that I’ve turned over in my head many, many times.
My therapist’s life went careening off the rails last fall, and so much damage was left in the wake of that unforeseen disaster. Every person connected to her was impacted. The scene of the crash was quite horrific. The train meant to safely ferry us from here to there, to a destination, was suddenly lying on its side, irrevocably damaged and unable to continue the journey.